when you find out one of your friends is gay, what do you do? Do you just walk away or feel cool about it? For me, i really don't know what to do. I feel like , yeah its alright, nothing serious, pretty cool when its people i don't really know. But now, it's my friend, one of my closest friend. I know there is something in her but i don't know how to deal with it when it comes down to my bestfriend. Do i say anything to her? Or do i just stay quiet. What worse, she said she has feelings for a few of us not just one of us. She is acting weirdly.

Maybe its not, but the way she acted and different things that happened led us to this conclusion. It may be not , it may be just depression in her or just herself seeking for our attention. But the way she acted freaked us out. I'm worrying of her and i am afraid she is going to do something stupid like suicide. It could happen as you never know.

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No school tomorro because of the strike.

The JONAS BROTHERS are here tomorro!!!!!!!! In Phoneix Park!!!!!!!!!! OMJ!!!!!!

Going to PARAMORE concert !!!!!!Been waiting for years to go to their concert!!!!

Firstly i like to wish all the SPM and STPM people good luck in their state exams.

Supposely im a SPMer as well this year after that would be college. If i never come here to Ireland, i would be either studying graphic design or chinese physician in KL. I always wanted to be a Chinese Physician when i was small. But now i kinda in the wrong place if i am going to study chinese physician. Seeing my friends all graduated, i felt like im still a child. Especially look at the pictures, god, i missed so much. Qi Min asked me how i felt today when i saw those pictures, i didn't know what to say... A mixture of different feelings flushed up to me immediately. I always miss my family and friends, even until now, i still have homesick and all these shit stuffs. I felt like im in a strange place, not a place of my own...i'm an outsider, a stranger. Regret, i cannot. No point of being regret as i cannot go back in time although i wish i can. I don't like this place , i hate this place and sick of pretending i'm happy and okay here. Im not. I hate it here, hate all the Irish people and their freaking mind. I hate the friggin weather and i hate the life here. I don't care if a random Irish people came in and saw this, i just don't.

Still have a few days till December, then would be Xmas and then New Year. God, 2010... this is crazy. Time pased very quick without me noticing. I still remember early January this year and me and my friends were counting the days and now it's November going into December. Holy Shit! Then would be 2011, i'll be graduated from my high school and then 2012...

Crazy time crazy life crazy people

okok, New Moon is abslutely crazy.

Everyone in my school is on about it even the lads eg.Liam

Tickets were sold out two weeks before , i mean this is just mad!!!! People, calm down!!! I know Jacob is hot but no need for this ( who know, i'm like this as well )

I couldn't get the ticket for 6pm show so i watched the 8.45 pm instead. Went to the cinema at 8pm and im glad i did that. The amount of people in the cinema OMJ (Oh My Jacob)!!! People were everywhere!! The queue was so long. They were there before us and we went at 8pm. Jesus Chirst!! Normally the cinema there is so quiet, not much people go but on Friday night, it was packed. I remembered i was in the cinema with my friends and we were the only one in the screen while on Friday, the whole Screen 1 was full. People were there for Edward and Jacob. lol

So went in and got perfect seat at the front and right in the middle. Nice! After all the trailers and the screen went black for about 5 mins.And this couple beside me were cursing and giving out to the cinema and said that if they don't show the movie they gonna sue the cinema, OMJ come on , give a life! Jacob won't go away!

Then the movie started, everyone were sceaming and they were people hushing for others to shut up. New Moon is definately way better than Twillight, no doubt with this but it wasnt as good as i aspected. I was abit bored at some stage. Overall it was still amazing. There were a few funny parts eg.where Jacob took of  his shirt ( that was the good bit ). All of us agree that Jacob was fantastically HOT! What i like about him the most was where he was so caring in the movie ( well, Jacob's always caring ) and his body was warm not cold like Edward. He was always there for Bella ( i wish i was Bella) and always the one you can depend on.

Jasper was funny in the movie as well- the humerous in him.

Carlise was cool, the coolest vampire in the movie. He was immune to blood.

CONCERN FAST

03/12/09

Gloris's story

Her morning routine is like anyone else living in the slums but there is one profound difference. Gloria is only six years old.

She looks after her younger brother and sister all on her own.

Morning routine

Everyday, Gloria wakes up early, washes yesterday’s dishes and sweeps her small tin hut. She then takes her three-year old brother Aggrey Amwanda by the hand. Lifting her 18-month-old sister Musungu onto her back, they all go to the Baruka Health Centre in the heart of Mathare slum.

no updates or anything

i just- don't feel writing anymore

don't feel motivations

same old boring days

suckx

Can't believe it is half-term, one quarter of the school life of 09/10 is gone..

Too quick , too soon and yet i have to accept this.

Maybe i did do something,been working hard in my Bio and got an A in my assignment. Did shit in my maths but still get moved up to the Higher Honours Maths Class which i don't really want to. Did shit in my DCG...really bad, got a big fat zero in my last test... and yet i still can't draw a dihedral angle! really annoy! Fuckin hate the Eavon Boland's Poetry~

Depressed, Dark, Gloomy, Complains...

I hate all these, her poems are not even exciting or 'artistic' ,i don't understand why she even appear on the course, i mean Leaving Cert~Come on! Give a life there and stop complanning!

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last night, definately the highlight of my term~ went out with Shady !

one word - happy

no other words can describe this~ Love you lots xxx

惨了，我爱上你声音了。

很久很久没有这种感觉了，第一次是在几年前，第二次就是现在。

我们认识快3年了，不长不短

真的真的好喜欢你，可是那种喜欢还说不上爱吧~

我不知道，肯能我在逃避，可同时一部分的我却说放纵自己一次！

应该还是不应该

一切顺其自然吧！最重要的是你被从grounded解放先！！！（这个太好笑了，下次再迟到就会被ground更久）

我喜欢的东西，你讨厌

你喜欢的东西，我讨厌

可是我睡不着

想着明天的成绩

想着明天酱会是个多有火药味的一天

想着某个人

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终于要出成绩了

本来说好是十点半拿成绩然后11点半出发去水上乐园玩的

可是现在因为有人没缴钱所以取消了

很生气，不爽

陶醉在中，尤其是演奏者

非常好听也很感动

rc,谢谢你

一直说自己不是很好

其实你弹得非常好

对自己要有信心，这个你应该比我更加懂

不需要我说的东西

蛮 suprise下当你说你不是很好

因为这样的你和我认识的非常不一样（还有点不习惯）

打格子的个人照

裸照

装可爱的时候

遇上了很多老师，班主任，地理老师，法文老师，校长等。。。

由于我坐在旁边等时被校长看到了所以她托我当一次学校导游

为两位新生和家长介绍学校

我带他们走了整个学校

原来，我在这个学校也待了3年

我是第2批学生

曾经，和老师和同学建立了这个学校

为这间4年前被称于new school的学校付出了很多

我们很努力

当然也有要面对的考试好像考大学之类的。不过说起轻松，还是高一这年最轻松，常年都是活动（大部分活动由他们举办），没什么功课和根本没考试的说！不过年头却要给500++欧元。

开学的话，我可能会面对一个麻烦。这个问题是一直到昨天niamh说起时我才想到。之前一直都没去想会怎样。也就是去年我的两个朋友吵架我无辜被夹在中间，而一直到现在他们都还没有和好。一个是emma,一个是jordan。在我的gang 里面，全都觉得是jordan 的错，可是我觉得这只是小事，不需要弄到酱大所以我一直都没有选边站。加上现在我大部分的课将和jordan一起上，不说话和选边站好像有点不对而且我又觉得不想为这些小事而失去一个朋友。And then,昨天niamh和我说-〉we're not gonna loose you 。我听了后停顿了一下子，我觉得她好像叫我不要再和jordan一起。虽然一开始我和jordan也不是很熟，可是我一想到她将会自己一个人，被朋友抛弃，我会觉得很guilty.我会觉得她很可怜和我会狠不下心去和她说no.

我不知道到时候会是怎么样。我觉得他们好像在一个一个那样抛弃朋友，之前就有一个了，现在是jordan 说不定下一个是我。这样的友谊值得吗？

回想起来，这7个星期蛮有趣和充实的说也发生了很多事情。

这7个星期-很难忘也很有意思

首先，第一个星期我生病了，一度怀疑我得了A型流感~我去了新加坡参加我小舅的婚礼，然后在书窝住了几个星期（超舍不得那里），然后就在劳勿和吉隆坡两边走。。。。

遗憾的是没去到登加楼。。。不过没关系下次才去

这次是我第一次自己一个人回去。。。虽然一开始有点怕不过后来就没什么了。。。也不是很难。。。

只不过因为英国飞机场那边改了一些东西，和我记得的不一样

总之，安全回到。。。开始想念马来西亚了

我。。。还没有开始收拾呢！

我恐怕是到最后天晚上才开始收拾

我有好多东西要拿~~尤其是我衣服，太多了

还有一set水晶酒杯，这个是我叔叔的结婚礼物（蛮重的说）

我的laptop，要拿回去换电池

我的laptop寿命够长，用了4年多，速度还是很快！！不过那块电池就真的要换了，最多能用半小时

吉他不打算带回去，带我的那些音乐谱就行了。我要叫我舅舅教我一首新歌。这些歌我弹了好久还是弹不出mood 来

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刚刚在msn 和我在劳勿的朋友聊天。

话说现在入境被check到很严，我这几天又有点发热气所以啊祷告我自己快点好，不要到时侯不能入境就惨了~~我不能生病啊！！！！真的很麻烦，又要填表格，说明你有没有发烧之类的。。。啊~~~~~

Oxegen演唱会 至今已经有了5年，每一年都在Punchestown Racecourse举行，离我住的地方不远~~通常都是举行3天的， 一天的入门票差不多100 欧，如果是露营的话，租营地最便宜好像要280欧~太贵了，虽然我真的很想很想去。每一年都有很多人来- Green Day , Pink , The Killers, Snow Patrol,King of Leons, My Chemical Romance, Avril Lavigne等等~~今年Lady Gaga 也有在里面！！！还有The Killers 和Elbow 也是！！！我爱死The Killers 了，可惜regina Spektor 没有来，不过他的风格和这些都有点不合。。。

The Killers-Human

还有7天，我就回到马来西亚了，真的真的很excited !!! 去年回去只待了3个礼拜，时间很赶，大部分时间都待在登加楼。因为我的婆婆和很多亲戚住在那里。上次我是和学校请假回去的，回到来后我就在餐馆打工和babysitting。老师说，单单babysitting我赚了好多钱，比餐馆还要多几倍！！如果这次不是打算回去，我也是会去babysitting， 一天大概可以做50欧，对我来说，一天50欧可以让我笑很久 +上也不会很难。。。

这次可以回去这么久其实是一个treat来的，我阿姨答应的。本来我的行程是去芬兰然后上海在马来西亚。我本来是会去芬兰找我舅舅然后我们一起去上海玩3天再马来西亚。这个在去年圣诞节的时候plan 的，怎知道那个金融风暴倒访害到这个计划泡汤了。。。现在呢，我是去英国转机然后直接到马来西亚。这次我去stansted机场，之前我都是去heathrow。第一次去stansted怕走失了，因为我昨天才知道它的terminal 3 在很far east ， 就是说我要从西边走到东边去，不能直接在里面check in ， 真麻烦~

不过，不管了，有的回去就好了。。。回去7个礼拜，差不多两个月的说。虽然长时间但是我好像有很多东西做。7月，小叔叔结婚，到时可能会去新加坡的婚礼（他是半个新加坡人），搞定我的中5和6的数学还有我的bio = = ，去找我的堂姐，还有我还没见过的堂姐夫和他们的儿子。。。。。

总之，有的回去就很好了^^